Jesus at the Table – Zee Reagan


Leadership. Where it all started.

One afternoon, my husband and I came into an argument about leadership, it’s real definition, and how it should be taught at a young age. As the argument continues, I saw myself change into character as if I was the judge and my husband being the accused. I presented every case of what I can prove, specific and precise. I sounded so righteous stating the facts as to what kind of person he was, before. However, the outcome was not pleasant. My peace was gone thinking that I proved myself to be right.

A few days after, I’d created a pattern of bitterness in myself regarding people who has caused pain in my family in the past. Bitterness surrounded me. I was creating bullet points on every mistake that was done. Anxiety slowly crept in. I was having difficulty sleeping with all of these worries. I prayed and claimed Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. This brought healing upon me.

We went to church one Sunday and Pastor Lee preached about “taking it all in for God”. Philippians 2:14 says, to do everything without grumbling or arguing. I took it all in, trusted God and prayed.

Bad news came in the next day, but God has lifted me up from the spirit of bitterness. Rather than reacting to it, it reminded me of Mark 11:24 “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours”. Healing came in and I felt God’s forgiveness. I had my peace again.

Matthew 7: 1-3 “Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?

There are instances in our lives where we often face and we think that we are the judge of someone else’s case. We tend to disregard our own dirt or speck of dust in our own eyes before someone else’s, whoever may it be. As a result, it robs us of our peace. Furthermore, it causes trouble, anxiety and tension when we feel the need to fix everything in our own control. We are no better than anybody else. Whether we are leading or serving. We cannot judge people who desire to sit at the feet of Jesus’ no matter what we see from the outside. All we can do is cast our cares on God because His peace guards our hearts and our minds. He always will come through before us. Jesus sat and dined with the sinners. He is the only One who has the utmost right to condemn us from what we are, but He chose not to. Instead, Jesus, came as a man, to purchase us through His death so that we can live eternally. We have the power to choose love over condemnation of others because Jesus loved us first.  


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